It’s been a great four years working on The Zebra Pit and I am so grateful for all of your support and encouragement you’ve offered along the way. It’s been a great run and I’ve thoroughly enjoyed fulfilling our mission to bring you up to date information about rare illness and finding inventive ways to improve our health, get better symptom control and try to live our best lives possible.
I will be utilizing everything I’ve learned and tried to convey on this blog to get through this next phase in life. It’s time to put my writing and work with The Zebra Pit so I can support my family through troubling times.
As you know (if you read regularly and pay attention to any of my social media threads), my husband has fallen ill and has been unable to work for some months. Soon his FMLA will run out and that greatly complicates our lives.
Our dearest spoonie cat Loki also fell ill a few weeks ago. We paid for very expensive surgery and follow up care, but he lost the battle and we had to have him euthanized. It destroyed both our hearts and our emergency funds.
We are worried for our survival and so it has fallen on me to bring in what income I can. I was lucky enough to land a job at Regal Cinemas on December 5 and began working the next day. I know I don’t have to tell you how hard it is to work in pain, with ever increasing symptoms due to dysautonomia and intracranial hypertension, two of the conditions that seemingly fight for top billing as the antihero in this little movie called life with chronic illness.
I need all the spoons and help that my massage therapy, PT, meditation and good old rest can Foster. I need to focus on staying as level as possible so I can do this thing with some level of success. I know after my experience working with Uber and my career life before how easy it is to be swallowed whole by it all and spit out so bruised and broken there’s no cure but bed rest. I cannot allow myself to get there again.
That is why I must end publication of The Zebra Pit and focus solely on our survival and what I have to do. Believe me. No one is sadder about it than me.
My hope was to open the store and that we would make some modest sales to help get us through. After a grand opening that was anything but grand, we had no choice but to pull out before we lost even more. We didn’t make a single sale and lost hundreds in the venture. The results were not those we expected at all. Instead, we saw a big drop in our numbers which continues today.
The majority has spoken. They don’t want our health and wellness tips. They definitely don’t want our design ideas and neither we nor The Zebra Pit has what we need to continue. I’m not complaining. I’m just stating fact.
We closed the store on December 3 and this letter will be our last post. While The Zebra Pit will remain up in its entirety, we have no plans of publishing in the future. If I work on other projects they will not be blogging oriented. I’ll continue to post and share the hundreds of creative pieces I’ve built up over the years at Mykie Writes It and continue to solicit for freelance writing opportunities, but that’s as close as I will likely come.
We plan to work on the site from time to time to keep it compliant and in good shape so the information we’ve provided is preserved to help those battling the same kind of symptoms that have plagued me. We will continue to share the work through social media, as well. We will even continue to share the work of other bloggers who continue the work we’re forced to leave behind.
You will still see us on Facebook and Twitter. While we’ve been forced to cancel our internet and TV for now, I’ll be there to answer questions when I can and will always be part of the chronic illness community. I am by no means abandoning the community and I invite you to follow me and speak with me anytime you need. I’ve always been available to help the community and that won’t change. It’ll just be a bit more limited due to time constraints and fewer spoons.
As we wrap things up, I just want to express how valuable the support and friendship you’ve offered along the way has been for me. The Zebra Pit would have been much shorter lived had I not had you to rely upon. In fact, the community has talked me out of giving up at several discouraging moments along the way. Some of you know all too intimately how much I have struggled to keep it all going. You all mean so much to me, I feel like I’m losing my safe haven on top of everything else. But the reality is I communicate with most of you via Twitter, Facebook, Instagram and email. You’re all in my life in other ways, so I know I’m not losing anything at all. I’m gaining the time and space to do what I have to do and probably should have attempted sooner.
I hope you continue to read and share our posts, as I’m quite certain the only person to read them all is me. Don’t forget about our pages where our subject matter is listed by topic, as well as our Chronic Illness Blog Directory, including many blogs I frequent for reliable information and great essays about chronic illness. I hope when others come to you hurting and in need if direction, you still send them here. It’s why I’m leaving it up and if we’re still seeing traffic, it’s all the more likely to stay.
I hesitate to end this, but the truth is there’s nothing more to say, except au revior, mon ami. We wish you all the best in the coming year and beyond.
Love and spoons,